4 Steps I go through in order to feel better

So I was thinking about what new topic I should write in this blog. Since it's about me, I should write about this temporal visitor I've had since I was thirteen: depression.

Since I'm a little motivated now, I want to share how I try to fix/fight/deal my dark/sad/angry days.

This is only one thing I do. Eventually I will share the things I used to do. The ones that still work and the ones that don't anymore. I can't promise it would heal all of you. I'm just a depressed girl sharing some personal stuff. Everyone is different, hopefully it will help someone out there though.

Step 1: I take a long long long bath.

You all may think 'Tsk, such a girl' but hey... wait a little bit. Make sure is not just a bath. In my sad days I feel horrible. I can't even stand watching myself on the mirror. So I've discovered recently that I feel better when I use some beauty products (A nice hair treatment or/and a nice skin treatment) For sure I won't instantly become beautiful but It helps me to kind of forget the feeling. I add some bubbles, aromatic candles, etc sometimes.

Step 2: I listen to my favorite songs while taking the bath.

One thing I can't stand while being depressed is to over-think so I make sure I won't do it. I make a playlist of the songs I feel like listening or singing. Singing out loud in the bath makes me distract myself from the horribles thoughts I usually have. Silence is my favorite thing but when I'm depressed it can kill me. Even If I don't want to talk to anyone.

Step 3: Plan B for the music.

If I'm moody and I don't feel like singing or listen to music, I find a really good book. Yes, it's risky to read while taking a bath but trust me, going into someone's imagination will be worth it. I promise.

 

Step 4: Talking to my 12.

One thing I do while all of this process is messaging my 12. Why? Feeling the support and calm of him makes me feel better. Even when he is at work he finds a moment to make sure I'm ok so I try to stick to him as much as I can. He makes me feel loved and safe. Even in those days I really want to stop breathing, he is there for me.

Here are the 4 steps I go through in order to feel better. Hopefully it'd help someone. Like I said, I know nothing. I'm just someone trying to be better.

Have a great week.